A whole year ago, I was happy in your arms. At least I thought so.
What I didn’t know, was you were not happy. Sneaking around behind my back, pretending you wanted ‘our family’.
9 months to the day that you left.
It feels like a lifetime.
A lifetime ago that you broke my heart, let me down and turned my world inside out.
BUT I am grateful. Thankyou for making me see sense. Thankyou for making me realise that I don’t need a man to be happy. Don’t get me wrong, being the father of my child it’ll always hurt that you left. I’ll always have a place in my heart for you.
But I no longer cry when I hear your name.
My heart doesn’t crumple when I think of you with another girl.
I no longer wonder what we could’ve had and could’ve been.
For I am grateful that we created such a beautiful human being in the short time we spent together. She has healed my broken heart.
I am finally in a happy place. I feel that this is the happiest I have ever been. I am back at work, I have a small group of friends, my family and most importantly I have my little girl. I feel that nothing can burst my bubble right now.
I am PROUD. I am proud of fixing myself, picking myself up off of the ground and fighting for it all.
Its just crazy when you look back in time and see how things were and how far you do grow and thrive.
I can take anything life throws at me, as long as I’ve got my daughter by my side!